Nobody

Have you ever felt
being a nobody

Have you ever dealt
the words they say
the melting of mind
the moral fray

When nobody likes
being with you
When everybody avoids
being seen wih you

Have you ever felt
being a nobody

Have you ever seen
the hate in their eyes
When nobody understands
your pain, your plight

When nobody wants
to talk to you
When nobody is there
to walk with you

Have you ever felt
being a nobody

I lie here

No heavy words, yet ...

Betrayed and lone
I lie here
shattered and torn
I lie here

Voices inside
I hear nothing
shadows beside
I see nothing

Agony and pain
I lie here
despaired and slain
I lie here

Twitches inside
I feel nothing
choking and dying
I breath nothing

Cold and waiting
I lie here
This is the day
I die here

Black

This is not mine but this definately belongs to me, painful yet adorable....

Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me
As her body once did
All five horizons
Revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn
and all I taught her was everything
I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands
Chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
the pictures have
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by
Some kids at play
I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear Oh,
and twisted thoughts that spin
Round my head I'm spinning
Oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can,
drop away...
And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad
Turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see
All that I am
All I'll be...
I know someday
you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why Why Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine

Shorty

Screaming like a siren
as iron rubs iron
you wait for it to happen
but don't want it to
this gets onto ur brain
as a driver sans train
stakes and tensions high
who cares u live or die
they'll expect you to work
but will treat u like jerk
You hate that gaze
rat in crystal maze
you ask how long you suffer
but there is only one answer
You'll get used to dying
You'll get used to...

The only sane response to the insane world is to lose your mind

मेरा भारत महान

अब हिंदी शुरू हो गयी मामू

Re-search@night

Tensions add to tensions

Anguish springs from anguish

Sorrow rests on sorrow

Cravings feed on all

Terrors rise in terrors

Regrets float on regrets

Fear gathers fear

Envy curses all

Confusion sows confusion

Ignorance enthrones ignorance

Weakness causes weakness

Pride shatters all

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  Going gray is like ejaculating: you know it can happen prematurely, but when it does it comes as a total shock
  


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  One life is all we have and we live it as we believe in living it. But to sacrifice what you are and to live without belief, that is a fate more terrible than dying.

Mortalification

The state of transition
from one hell to another
You are not alive
but you ain't dead either

Your breathing is done
but lungs longing for more
memories fading from mind
a feeling of calm
a state of numb

Your body feeling lighter
with the weight of earth
on your chest

Everything moving in circles
clouding your mind
your heartbeat is violent
your senses are silent
your body minus soul
it leaves you very cold

You losing your sane
You can't feel pain
'cuz life is a whore
You gotta be its pimp

Happy Birthday to me.......

So, My Blog My Wish !!

I owe all

Kind Attn:
The following post is in accordance with the promise I made in the previous post titled "Just Gibberish" dated Feb. 25, 2007 regarding posting something defying the themes of posts posted so far. HAHAHAHAHA........

Now this I call real Gibberish !! The thing following this is not exactly what I promised but I hope you'll like it and even if you don't, who cares, hehehe.......

I loved you, loved at first sight

have lean cheeks,

thirst on sunken eyes

An unquestionable spirit,

a beard neglected

I owe all, yet you say

I love you not

My better parts are thrown down

that which here

stands up is but aquintain

without your love

this is lifeless block

I owe all, yet you say

I love you not

My bosom burns with fruitless passions

I reflect a dropped acorn,

wounded Knight. My genuine

love blooms every hour

And I to live and die your slave

I owe all, yet you say

I love you not ......

Just Gibberish !!!

God !! Last few days have been really busy...have started something but have not been able to complete, lack of time. Yesterday I went to LANDMARK, a book shop and saw a book "I love my job" and I was wondering what kind of idiot person can like his/her job, my job SUCKSSSS ....

Now, again I have to reach office by 8 in the morning,can you believe that ! Getting up this early and going to office, I dunno why my manager is doin these kind of things....

Nevermind, have to go, Paapi pet ka sawaal hai (now if you don't understand Hindi, which happens to be my mothertongue, that line meant, have to do to earn my bread)....

And yeah !! A few people said that I should post something romantic over here so Guys ! I am working on it and will definately post something over here soon, till then Tally hoOOOOO (Got to wake up early)

Soul Surfer

I guess I've been thinking a lot these days. This is not something dark in real terms but treads along the greyer lines. Its about liking of living on your own terms, about searching for a better life ....

Why can't I live my way
Why do I have to pay
for things I tend not to do
Facts they force may not hold true

They'll tell you to live strong
They'll tell you to live long
Why do you fear mortality
How do you define morality

Who are they to define wrongs and rights
How will they justify all wars, all fights

Where is the place, there is no sound
Where is that place, no one is around
This is the place I want to see
This is the place I need to be
Why is it wrong to live sinfully !!

Worthy of Hell

Guess who's back
Back again

Shady's back !!!

Oops,I think I just made a copyright violation....By the way,Shady is GOD, this guy rocks but this blog is not about him, this is my place so better leave him out of this place and do what I do.

So, its not shady who is back here, it is me.....

This thing involves a bit of questioning that evolves in my mind. God ! I miss my mind :-(

I guess there ia a plan for all of us,
who's to plan the plan of the plans.
The poison ivy covering the walls from inside,
who's to decide the last exit.

The sons' of satan are on the prowl,
and I've been fighting the eagles alone,
the body pieces flying apart,
who's to decide I'm dead or alive.

To find the spear of destiny,
I've to die twice,
but who's to decide who is,
even worthy of hell.

Hmmm, rhyming is missing but is that necessary, I don't think so !!!

RED RAIN !!

Here I go again, god help me and all the readers , AMEN !!!

Darkness all around,
no sight no sound !
A blanket of mist,
from the nature's list !!

Lichens crawling up the trees !
Sucking up their sap for free !!
Slime slinging off the walls !
That's where slithering creatures,
Begin to crawl !!

Steam gushing out from land !
It smells distinct,
a burning human hand !!

I slipped onto something,
but avoided the clash !
You need to be careful,
in the puddle of flesh !!

Its all wet, wet in red !
'Cuz the rain is dripping,
and its raining DEAD !!

....and they say LIFE is Beautiful

Here comes my first logical entry. I wrote this thing 2 night back, dunno what was running through my mind, never mind, here it goes.....

The blood dripping out of my brain
Its so numb, you feel no pain

Why do you expect something from me
Why it matters what I happen to be
Why can't you let me live free
Or atleast die peacefully

My self gets tossed in numerous flips
Bearing the pain of relationships

They say I need a soul refinement
GET LOST !!
I'll find my peace in solitary confinement

You can find people fighting for life
but how many have you seen
fighting the life

I am a warrior, drowning in blood
clinging to the immortal shell
the shell called death

Welcome

First things first,

I am not an avid blogger, this is just a scribbling place for me so if you don't like anything over here, don't crib, just leave, its as easy as that.

You want to keep me down !

You got to work very hard !!

You dont like my sound !

You need a get well card !!

You think I'm blunt !

You want some human hunt !!

You wish you send me hate message flood !

Then why dont you come over and relish my BLOOD !!

You don't like my attitude !! Again, leave, I won't mind. But if you like what I am doing over here, I'll be glad to know.

All sorts of comments are welcome (try to avoid obsceneties).

So, that's it ......

WELCOME TO MY PLACE